"I am," said he, with a firm voice.
"And never allow yourself to be blinded by prejudice?"
"I hope not."
"It is particularly incumbent on those who never change their opinion, to be
secure of judging properly at first."
"May I ask to what these questions tend?"
"Merely to the illustration of your character," said she, endeavouring to shake
off her gravity. "I am trying to make it out."
"And what is your success?"
She shook her head. "I do not get on at all. I hear such different accounts of
you as puzzle me exceedingly."
"I can readily believe," answered he gravely, "that report may vary greatly with
respect to me; and I could wish, Miss Bennet, that you were not to sketch my character
at the present moment, as there is reason to fear that the performance would reflect
no credit on either."
"But if I do not take your likeness now, I may never have another opportunity."
"I would by no means suspend any pleasure of yours," he coldly replied. She said
no more, and they went down the other dance and parted in silence; on each side
dissatisfied, though not to an equal degree, for in Darcy's breast there was a tolerable
powerful feeling towards her, which soon procured her pardon, and directed all his
anger against another.
They had not long separated when Miss Bingley came towards her, and with an expression
of civil disdain thus accosted her, "So, Miss Eliza, I hear you are quite delighted
with George Wickham! -- Your sister has been talking to me about him, and asking
me a thousand questions; and I find that the young man forgot to tell you, among
his other communications, that he was the son of old Wickham, the late Mr. Darcy's
steward. Let me recommend you, however, as a friend, not to give implicit confidence
to all his assertions; for as to Mr. Darcy's using him ill, it is perfectly false;
for, on the contrary, he has been always remarkably kind to him, though George Wickham
has treated Mr. Darcy, in a most infamous manner. I do not know the particulars,
but I know very well that Mr. Darcy is not in the least to blame, that he cannot
bear to hear George Wickham mentioned, and that though my brother thought he could
not well avoid including him in his invitation to the officers, he was excessively
glad to find that he had taken himself out of the way. His coming into the country
at all, is a most insolent thing indeed, and I wonder how he could presume to do
I pity you, Miss Eliza, for this discovery of your favorite's guilt; but really,
considering his descent one could not expect much better."
"His guilt and his descent appear by your account to be the same," said Elizabeth
angrily; "for I have heard you accuse him of nothing worse than of being the son
of Mr. Darcy's steward, and of that, I can assure you, he informed me himself."
"I beg your pardon," replied Miss Bingley, turning away with a sneer. "Excuse
my interference. -- It was kindly meant."
"Insolent girl!" said Elizabeth to herself. -- "You are much mistaken if you
expect to influence me by such a paltry attack as this. I see nothing in it but
your own wilful ignorance and the malice of Mr. Darcy." She then sought her eldest
sister, who had undertaken to make inquiries on the same subject of Bingley. Jane
met her with a smile of such sweet complacency, a glow of such happy expression,
as sufficiently marked how well she was satisfied with the occurrences of the evening.
-- Elizabeth instantly read her feelings, and at that moment solicitude for Wickham,
resentment against his enemies and every thing else gave way before the hope of
Jane's being in the fairest way for happiness.
"I want to know," said she, with a countenance no less smiling than her sister's,
"what you have learnt about Mr. Wickham.
But perhaps you have been too pleasantly engaged to think of any third person,
in which case you may be sure of my pardon."
"No," replied Jane, "I have not forgotten him; but I have nothing satisfactory
to tell you. Mr. Bingley does not know the whole of his history, and is quite ignorant
of the circumstances which have principally offended Mr. Darcy; but he will vouch
for the good conduct, the probity and honour of his friend, and is perfectly convinced
that Mr. Wickham has deserved much less attention from Mr. Darcy than he has received;
and I am sorry to say that by his account as well as his sister's, Mr. Wickham is
by no means a respectable young man. I am afraid he has been very imprudent, and
has deserved to lose Mr. Darcy's regard."
"Mr. Bingley does not know Mr. Wickham himself?"
"No; he never saw him till the other morning at Meryton."
"This account then is what he has received from Mr. Darcy.
I am perfectly satisfied. But what does he say of the living?"
"He does not exactly recollect the circumstances, though he has heard them from
Mr. Darcy more than once, but he believes that it was left to him conditionally
"I have not a doubt of Mr. Bingley's sincerity," said Elizabeth warmly; "but
you must excuse my not being convinced by assurances only. Mr. Bingley's defence
of his friend was a very able one I dare say, but since he is unacquainted with
several parts of the story, and has learnt the rest from that friend himself, I
shall venture still to think of both gentlemen as I did before."
She then changed the discourse to one more gratifying to each, and on which there
could be no difference of sentiment.
Elizabeth listened with delight to the happy, though modest hopes which Jane
entertained of Bingley's regard, and said all in her power to heighten her confidence
in it. On their being joined by Mr. Bingley himself, Elizabeth withdrew to Miss
Lucas; to whose inquiry after the pleasantness of her last partner she had scarcely
replied, before Mr. Collins came up to them and told her with great exultation that
he had just been so fortunate as to make a most important discovery.
"I have found out," said he, "by a singular accident, that there is now in the
room a near relation of my patroness. I happened to overhear the gentleman himself
mentioning to the young lady who does the honours of this house the names of his
cousin Miss de Bourgh, and of her mother Lady Catherine. How wonderfully these sort
of things occur! Who would have thought of my meeting with -- perhaps -- a nephew
of Lady Catherine de Bourgh in this assembly! -- I am most thankful that the discovery
is made in time for me to pay my respects to him, which I am now going to do, and
trust he will excuse my not having done it before. My total ignorance of the connection
must plead my apology."
"You are not going to introduce yourself to Mr. Darcy?"
"Indeed I am. I shall intreat his pardon for not having done it earlier. I believe
him to be Lady Catherine's nephew. It will be in my power to assure him that her
ladyship was quite well yesterday se'nnight."
Elizabeth tried hard to dissuade him from such a scheme; assuring him that Mr.
Darcy would consider his addressing him without introduction as an impertinent freedom,
rather than a compliment to his aunt; that it was not in the least necessary there
should be any notice on either side, and that if it were, it must belong to Mr.
Darcy, the superior in consequence, to begin the acquaintance. -- Mr. Collins listened
to her with the determined air of following his own inclination and when she ceased
speaking, replied thus, "My dear Miss Elizabeth, I have the highest opinion in the
world of your excellent judgment in all matters within the scope of your understanding,
but permit me to say that there must be a wide difference between the established
forms of ceremony amongst the laity, and those which regulate the clergy; for give
me leave to observe that I consider the clerical office as equal in point of dignity
with the highest rank in the kingdom -- provided that a proper humility of behaviour
is at the same time maintained. You must therefore allow me to follow the dictates
of my conscience on this occasion, which leads me to perform what I look on as a
point of duty. Pardon me for neglecting to profit by your advice, which on every
other subject shall be my constant guide, though in the case before us I consider
myself more fitted by education and habitual study to decide on what is right than
a young lady like yourself." And with a low bow he left her to attack Mr. Darcy,
whose reception of his advances she eagerly watched, and whose astonishment at being
so addressed was very evident. Her cousin prefaced his speech with a solemn bow,
and though she could not hear a word of it, she felt as if hearing it all, and saw
in the motion of his lips the words "apology,"
"Hunsford," and "Lady Catherine de Bourgh." -- It vexed her to see him expose
himself to such a man. Mr. Darcy was eyeing him with unrestrained wonder, and when
at last Mr. Collins allowed him time to speak, replied with an air of distant civility.
Mr. Collins, however, was not discouraged from speaking again, and Mr. Darcy's
contempt seemed abundantly increasing with the length of his second speech, and
at the end of it he only made him a slight bow, and moved another way. Mr. Collins
then returned to Elizabeth.