At last when the unknown was mounting to the fourth floor, he suddenly started,
and succeeded in slipping neatly and quickly back into the flat and closing the
door behind him. Then he took the hook and softly, noiselessly, fixed it in the
catch. Instinct helped him. When he had done this, he crouched holding his breath,
by the door. The unknown visitor was by now also at the door. They were now standing
opposite one another, as he had just before been standing with the old woman, when
the door divided them and he was listening.
The visitor panted several times. "He must be a big, fat man," thought Raskolnikov,
squeezing the axe in his hand. It seemed like a dream indeed. The visitor took hold
of the bell and rang loudly.
As soon as the tin bell tinkled, Raskolnikov seemed to be aware of something
moving in the room. For some seconds he listened quite seriously. The unknown rang
again, waited and suddenly tugged violently and impatiently at the handle of the
door. Raskolnikov gazed in horror at the hook shaking in its fastening, and in blank
terror expected every minute that the fastening would be pulled out. It certainly
did seem possible, so violently was he shaking it. He was tempted to hold the fastening,
but he might be aware of it. A giddiness came over him again. "I shall fall down!"
flashed through his mind, but the unknown began to speak and he recovered himself
"What's up? Are they asleep or murdered? D-damn them!" he bawled in a thick voice,
"Hey, Alyona Ivanovna, old witch! Lizaveta Ivanovna, hey, my beauty! open the door!
Oh, damn them! Are they asleep or what?"
And again, enraged, he tugged with all his might a dozen times at the bell. He
must certainly be a man of authority and an intimate acquaintance.
At this moment light hurried steps were heard not far off, on the stairs. Some
one else was approaching. Raskolnikov had not heard them at first.
"You don't say there's no one at home," the new-comer cried in a cheerful, ringing
voice, addressing the first visitor, who still went on pulling the bell. "Good evening,
"From his voice he must be quite young," thought Raskolnikov.
"Who the devil can tell? I've almost broken the lock," answered Koch. "But how
do you come to know me?
"Why! The day before yesterday I beat you three times running at billiards at
"So they are not at home? That's queer? It's awfully stupid though. Where could
the old woman have gone? I've come on business."
"Yes; and I have business with her, too."
"Well, what can we do? Go back, I suppose, Aie-aie! And I was hoping to get some
money!" cried the young man.
"We must give it up, of course, but what did she fix this time for? The old witch
fixed the time for me to come herself. It's out of my way. And where the devil she
can have got to, I can't make out. She sits here from year's end to year's end,
the old hag; her legs are bad and yet here all of a sudden she is out for a walk!"
"Hadn't we better ask the porter?"
"Where she's gone and when she'll be back."
"Hm…. Damn it all!… We might ask…. But you know she never does go anywhere."
And he once more tugged at the door-handle.
"Damn it all. There's nothing to be done, we must go!"
"Stay!" cried the young man suddenly. "Do you see how the door shakes if you
"That shows it's not locked, but fastened with the hook! Do you hear how the
"Why, don't you see? That proves that one of them is at home. If they were all
out, they would have locked the door from the outside with the key and not with
the hook from inside. There, do you hear how the hook is clanking? To fasten the
hook on the inside they must be at home, don't you see. So there they are sitting
inside and don't open the door!"
"Well! And so they must be!" cried Koch, astonished. "What are they about in
there!" And he began furiously shaking the door.
"Stay!" cried the young man again. "Don't pull at it! There must be something
wrong….. Here, you've been ringing and pulling at the door and still they don't
open! So either they've both fainted or…"
"I tell you what. Let's go fetch the porter, let him wake them up."
Both were going down.
"Stay. You stop here while I run down for the porter."
"Well, you'd better."
"I'm studying the law you see! It's evident, e-vi-dent there's something wrong
here!" the young man cried hotly, and he ran downstairs.
Koch remained. Once more he softly touched the bell which gave one tinkle, then
gently, as though reflecting and looking about him, began touching the door-handle
pulling it and letting it go to make sure once more that it was only fastened by
the hook. Then puffing and panting he bent down and began looking at the keyhole;
but the key was in the lock on the inside and so nothing could be seen.
Raskolnikov stood keeping tight hold of the axe. He was in a sort of delirium.
He was even making ready to fight when they should come in. While they were knocking
and talking together, the idea several times occurred to him to end it all at once
and shout to them through the door. Now and then he was tempted to swear at them,
to jeer at them, while they could not open the door! "Only make haste!" was the
thought that flashed through his mind.
"But what the devil is he about?…" Time was passing, one minute, and another–
no one came. Koch began to be restless.
"What the devil?" he cried suddenly and in impatience deserting his sentry duty,
he, too, went down, hurrying and thumping his heavy boots on the stairs. The steps
"Good heavens! What am I to do?"
Raskolnikov unfastened the hook, opened the door– there was no sound. Abruptly,
without any thought at all, he went out, closing the door as thoroughly as he could,
and went downstairs.
He had gone down three flights when he suddenly heard a loud voice below– where
could he go! There was nowhere to hide. He was just going back to the flat.
"Hey there! Catch the brute!"
Somebody dashed out of a flat below, shouting, and rather fell than ran down
the stairs, bawling at the top of his voice.
"Mitka! Mitka! Mitka! Mitka! Mitka! Blast him!"
The shout ended in a shriek; the last sounds came from the yard; all was still.
But at the same instant several men talking loud and fast began noisily mounting
the stairs. There were three or four of them. He distinguished the ringing voice
of the young man. "They!"
Filled with despair he went straight to meet them, feeling "come what must!"
If they stopped him– all was lost; if they let him pass– all was lost too; they
would remember him. They were approaching; they were only a flight from him– and
suddenly deliverance! A few steps from him on the right, there was an empty flat
with the door wide open, the flat on the second floor where the painters had been
at work, and which, as though for his benefit, they had just left. It was they,
no doubt, who had just run down, shouting. The floor had only just been painted,
in the middle of the room stood a pail and a broken pot with paint and brushes.
In one instant he had whisked in at the open door and hidden behind the wall and
only in the nick of time; they had already reached the landing. Then they turned
and went on up to the fourth floor, talking loudly. He waited, went out on tiptoe
and ran down the stairs.
No one was on the stairs, nor in the gateway. He passed quickly through the gateway
and turned to the left in the street.
He knew, he knew perfectly well that at that moment they were at the flat, that
they were greatly astonished at finding it unlocked, as the door had just been fastened,
that by now they were looking at the bodies, that before another minute had passed
they would guess and completely realise that the murderer had just been there, and
had succeeded in hiding somewhere, slipping by them and escaping. They would guess
most likely that he had been in the empty flat, while they were going upstairs.
And meanwhile he dared not quicken his pace much, though the next turning was still
nearly a hundred yards away. "Should he slip through some gateway and wait somewhere
in an unknown street? No, hopeless! Should he fling away the axe? Should he take
a cab? Hopeless, hopeless!"
At last he reached the turning. He turned down it more dead than alive. Here
he was half way to safety, and here understood it; it was less risky because there
was a great crowd of people, and he was lost in it like a grain of sand. But all
he had suffered had so weakened him that he could scarcely move. Perspiration ran
down him in drops, his neck was all wet. "My word, he has been going it!" some one
shouted at him when he came out on the canal bank.
He was only dimly conscious of himself now, and the farther he went the worse
it was. He remembered however, that on coming out on to the canal bank, he was alarmed
at finding few people there and so being more conspicuous, and he had thought of
turning back. Though he was almost falling from fatigue, he went a long way round
so as to get home from quite a different direction.
He was not fully conscious when he passed through the gateway of his house! he
was already on the staircase before he recollected the axe. And yet he had a very
grave problem before him, to put it back and to escape observation as far as possible
in doing so. He was of course incapable of reflecting that it might perhaps be far
better not to restore the axe at all, but to drop it later on in somebody's yard.
But it all happened fortunately, the door of the porter's room was closed but not
locked, so that it seemed most likely that the porter was at home. But he had so
completely lost all power of reflection that he walked straight to the door and
opened it. If the porter had asked him "What do you want?" he would perhaps have
simply handed him the axe. But again the porter was not at home, and he succeeded
in putting the axe back under the bench, and even covering it with the chunk of
wood as before. He met no one, not a soul, afterwards on the way to his room; the
landlady's door was shut. When he was in his room, he flung himself on the sofa
just as he was– he did not sleep, but sank into blank forgetfulness. If any one
had come into his room then, he would have jumped up at once and screamed. Scraps
and shreds of thoughts were simply swarming in his brain, but he could not catch
at one, he could not rest on one, in spite of all his efforts…. CHAPTERONE PART
Chapter One –
SO HE lay a very long while. Now and then he seemed to wake up, and at such moments
he noticed that it was far into the night, but it did not occur to him to get up.
At last he noticed that it was beginning to get light. He was lying on his back,
still dazed from his recent oblivion. Fearful, despairing cries rose shrilly from
the street, sounds which he heard every night, indeed, under his window after two
o'clock. They woke him up now.
"Ah! the drunken men are coming out of the taverns," he thought, "it's past two
o'clock," and at once he leaped up, as though some one had pulled him from the sofa.
"What! Past two o'clock!"
He sat down on the sofa– and instantly recollected everything! All at once, in
one flash, he recollected everything.
For the first moment he thought he was going mad. A dreadful chill came over
him; but the chill was from the fever that had begun long before in his sleep. Now
he was suddenly taken with violent shivering, so that his teeth chattered and all
his limbs were shaking. He opened the door and began listening; everything in the
house was asleep. With amazement he gazed at himself and everything in the room
around him, wondering how he could have come in the night before without fastening
the door, and have flung himself on the sofa without undressing, without even taking
his hat off. It had fallen off and was lying on the floor near his pillow.
"If any one had come in, what would he have thought? That I'm drunk but…"
He rushed to the window. There was light enough, and he began hurriedly looking
himself all over from head to foot, all his clothes; were there no traces? But there
was no doing it like that; shivering with cold, he began taking off everything and
looking over again. He turned everything over to the last threads and rags, and
mistrusting himself, went through his search three times.
But there seemed to be nothing, no trace, except in one place, where some thick
drops of congealed blood were clinging to the frayed edge of his trousers. He picked
up a big claspknife and cut off the frayed threads. There seemed to be nothing more.
Suddenly he remembered that the purse and the things he had taken out of the
old woman's box were still in his pockets! He had not thought till then of taking
them out and hiding them! He had not even thought of them while he was examining
his clothes! What next? Instantly he rushed to take them out, and fling them on
the table. When he had pulled out everything, and turned the pocket inside out to
be sure there was nothing left, he carried the whole heap to the corner. The paper
had come off the bottom of the wall and hung there in tatters. He began stuffing
all the things into the hole under the paper: "They're in! All out of sight, and
the purse too!" he thought gleefully, getting up and gazing blankly at the hole
which bulged out more than ever. Suddenly he shuddered all over with horror; "My
God!" he whispered in despair: "what's the matter with me? Is that hidden? Is that
the way to hide things?"