It was the third day of the estrangement. Some might risk the odd paradox that
with more animalism he would have been the nobler man. We do not say it. Yet Clare's
love was doubtless ethereal to a fault, imaginative to impracticability. With these
natures, corporal presence is something less appealing than corporal absence; the
latter creating an ideal presence that conveniently drops the defects of the real.
She found that her personality did not plead her cause so forcibly as she had anticipated.
The figurative phrase was true: she was another woman than the one who had excited
''I have thought over what you say,'' she remarked to him, moving her forefinger
over the tablecloth, her other hand, which bore the ring that mocked them both,
supporting her forehead. ''It is quite true all of it; it must be. You must go away
''But what can you do?"'
''I can go home.''
Clare had not thought of that.
''Are you sure?'' he inquired.
''Quite sure. We ought to part, and we may as well get it past and done. You
once said that I was apt to win men against their better judgement; and if I am
constantly before your eyes I may cause you to change your plans in opposition to
your reason and wish; and afterwards your repentance and my sorrow will be terrible.''
''And you would like to go home?'' he asked.
''I want to leave you, and go home.''
''Then it shall be so.''
Though she did not look up at him, she started. There was a difference between
the proposition and the covenant which she had felt only too quickly.
''I feared it would come to this,'' she murmured, her countenance meekly fixed.
''I don't complain, Angel, I-I think it best. What you said has quite convinced
me. Yes, though nobody else should reproach me if we should stay together, yet somewhen,
years hence, you might get angry with me for any ordinary matter, and knowing what
you do of my bygones you yourself might be tempted to say words, and they might
be overheard, perhaps by my own children. O, what only hurts me now would torture
and kill me then! I will go-tomorrow.''
''And I shall not stay here. Though I didn't like to initiate it, I have seen
that it was advisable we should part-at least for a while, till I can better see
the shape that things have taken, and can write to you.''
Tess stole a glance at her husband. He was pale, even tremulous; but, as before,
she was appalled by the determination revealed in the depths of this gentle being
she had married-the will to subdue the grosser to the subtler emotion, the substance
to the conception, the flesh to the spirit. Propensities, tendencies, habits, were
as dead leaves upon the tyrannous wind of his imaginative ascendency.
He may have observed her look, for he explained-
''I think of people more kindly when I am away from them''; adding cynically,
''God knows; perhaps we will shake down together some day, for weariness; thousands
have done it!''
That day he began to pack up, and she went upstairs and began to pack also. Both
knew that it was in their two minds that they might part the next morning for ever,
despite the gloss of assuaging conjectures thrown over their processing because
they were of the sort to whom any parting which has an air of finality is a torture.
He knew, and she knew, that, though the fascination which each had exercised over
the other-on her part independently of accomplishments-would probably in the first
days of their separation be even more potent than ever, time must attenuate that
effect; the practical arguments against accepting her as a housemate might pronounce
themselves more strongly in the boreal light of a remoter view. Moreover, when two
people are once parted-have abandoned a common domicile and a common environment-new
growths insensibly bud upward to fill each vacated place; unforeseen accidents hinder
intentions, and old plans are forgotten.
Midnight came and passed silently, for there was nothing to announce it in the Valley
of the Froom.
Not long after one o'clock there was a slight creak in the darkened farmhouse
once the mansion of the d'Urbervilles. Tess, who used the upper chamber, heard it
and awoke. It had come from the corner step of the staircase, which, as usual, was
loosely nailed. She saw the door of her bedroom open, and the figure of her husband
crossed the stream of moonlight with a curiously careful tread. He was in his shirt
and trousers only, and her first flush of joy died when she perceived that his eyes
were fixed in an unnatural stare on vacancy. When he reached the middle of the room
he stood still and murmured in tones of indescribable sadness-
''Dead! dead! dead!''
Under the influence of any strongly-disturbing force Clare would occasionally
walk in his sleep, and even perform strange feats, such as he had done on the night
of their return from market just before their marriage, when he re-enacted in his
bedroom his combat with the man who had insulted her. Tess saw that continued mental
distress had wrought him into that somnambulistic state now.
Her loyal confidence in him lay so deep down in her heart, that, awake or asleep,
he inspired her with no sort of personal fear. If he had entered with a pistol in
his hand he would scarcely have disturbed her trust in his protectiveness.
Clare came close, and bent over her. ''Dead, dead, dead!'' he murmured.
After fixedly regarding her for some moments with the same gaze of unmeasurable
woe he bent lower, enclosed her in his arms, and rolled her in the sheet as in a
shroud. Then lifting her from the bed with as much respect as one would show to
a dead body, he carried her across the room, murmuring-
''My poor, poor Tess-my dearest, darling Tess! So sweet, so good, so true!''
The words of endearment, withheld so severely in his waking hours, were inexpressibly
sweet to her forlorn and hungry heart. If it had been to save her weary life she
would not, by moving or struggling, have put an end to the position she found herself
in. Thus she lay in absolute stillness, scarcely venturing to breathe, and, wondering
what he was going to do with her, suffered herself to be borne out upon the landing.
''My wife-dead, dead!'' he said.
He paused in his labours for a moment to lean with her against the banister.
Was he going to throw her down? Self-solicitude was near extinction in her, and
in the knowledge that he had planned to depart on the morrow, possibly for always,
she lay in his arms in this precarious position with a sense rather of luxury than
of terror. If they could only fall together, and both be dashed to pieces, how fit,
However, he did not let her fall, but took advantage of the support of the handrail
to imprint a kiss upon her lips-lips in the daytime scorned. Then he clasped her
with a renewed firmness of hold, and descended the staircase. The creak of the loose
stair did not awaken him, and they reached the ground-floor safely. Freeing one
of his hands from his grasp of her for a moment, he slid back the door-bar and passed
out, slightly striking his stockinged toe against the edge of the door. But this
he seemed not to mind, and, having room for extension in the open air, he lifted
her against his shoulder, so that he could carry her with ease, the absence of clothes
taking much from his burden. Thus he bore her off the premises in the direction
of the river a few yards distant.
His ultimate intention, if he had any, she had not yet divined; and she found
herself conjecturing on the matter as a third person might have done. So easefully
had she delivered her whole being up to him that it pleased her to think he was
regarding her as his absolute possession, to dispose of as he should choose. It
was consoling, under the hovering terror of tomorrow's separation, to feel that
he really recognized her now as his wife Tess, and did not cast her off, even if
in that recognition he went so far as to arrogate to himself the right of harming
Ah! now she knew what he was dreaming of-that Sunday morning when he had borne
her along through the water with the other dairymaids, who had loved him nearly
as much as she, if that were possible, which Tess could hardly admit. Clare did
not cross the bridge with her, but proceeding several paces on the same side towards
the adjoining mill, at length stood still on the brink of the river.
Its waters, in creeping down these miles of meadowland, frequently divided, serpentining
in purposeless curves, looping themselves around little islands that had no name,
returning and re-embodying themselves as a broad main stream further on. Opposite
the spot to which he had brought her was such a general confluence, and the river
was proportionately voluminous and deep. Across it was a narrow foot-bridge; but
now the autumn flood had washed the handrail away, leaving the bare plank only,
which, lying a few inches above the speeding current, formed a giddy pathway for
even steady heads; and Tess had noticed from the window of the house in the daytime
young men walking across upon it as a feat in balancing. Her husband had possibly
observed the same performance; anyhow, he now mounted the plank, and, sliding one
foot forward, advanced along it.
Was he going to drown her? Probably he was. The spot was lonely, the river deep
and wide enough to make such a purpose easy of accomplishment. He might drown her
if he would; it would be better than parting tomorrow to lead severed lives.
The swift stream raced and gyrated under them, tossing, distorting, and splitting
the moon's reflected face. Spots of froth travelled past, and intercepted weeds
waved behind the piles. If they could both fall together into the current now, their
arms would be so tightly clasped together that they could not be saved; they would
go out of the world almost painlessly, and there would be no more reproach to her,
or to him for marrying her. His last half-hour with her would have been a loving
one, while if they lived till he awoke his daytime aversion would return, and this
hour would remain to be contemplated only as a transient dream.
The impulse stirred in her, yet she dared not indulge it, to make a movement
that would have precipitated them both into the gulf. How she valued her own life
had been proved; but his-she had no right to tamper with it. He reached the other
side with her in safety.
Here they were within a plantation which formed the Abbey grounds, and taking
a new hold of her he went onward a few steps till they reached the ruined choir
of the Abbey-church. Against the north wall was the empty stone coffin of an abbot,
in which every tourist with a turn for grim humour was accustomed to stretch himself.
In this Clare carefully laid Tess. Having kissed her lips a second time he breathed
deeply, as if a greatly desired end were attained. Clare then lay down on the ground
alongside, when he immediately fell into the deep dead slumber of exhaustion, and
remained motionless as a log. The spurt of mental excitement which had produced
the effort was now over.
Tess sat up in the coffin. The night, though dry and mild for the season, was
more than sufficiently cold to make it dangerous for him to remain here long, in
his half-clothed state. If he were left to himself he would in all probability stay
there till the morning, and be chilled to certain death. She had heard of such deaths
after sleep-walking. But how could she dare to awaken him, and let him know what
he had been doing, when it would mortify him to discover his folly in respect of
her? Tess, however, stepping out of her stone confine, shook him slightly, but was
unable to arouse him without being violent. It was indispensable to do something,
for she was beginning to shiver, the sheet being but a poor protection. Her excitement
had in a measure kept her warm during the few minutes' adventure; but that beatific
interval was over.
It suddenly occurred to her to try persuasion; and accordingly she whispered
in his ear, with as much firmness and decision as she could summon-
''Let us walk on, darling,'' at the same time taking him suggestively by the
arm. To her relief, he unresistingly acquiesced; her words had apparently thrown
him back into his dream, which thenceforward seemed to enter on a new phase, wherein
he fancied she had risen as a spirit, and was leading him to Heaven. Thus she conducted
him by the arm to the stone bridge in front of their residence, crossing which they
stood at the manor-house door. Tess's feet were quite bare, and the stones hurt
her, and chilled her to the bone; but Clare was in his woollen stockings, and appeared
to feel no discomfort.
There was no further difficulty. She induced him to lie down on his own sofa
bed, and covered him up warmly, lighting a temporary fire of wood, to dry any dampness
out of him. The noise of these attentions she thought might awaken him, and secretly
wished that they might. But the exhaustion of his mind and body was such that he
As soon as they met the next morning Tess divined that Angel knew little or nothing
of how far she had been concerned in the night's excursion, though, as regarded
himself, he may have been aware that he had not lain still. In truth, he had awakened
that morning from a sleep deep as annihilation; and during those first few moments
in which the brain, like a Samson shaking himself, is trying its strength, he had
some dim notion of an unusual nocturnal proceeding. But the realities of his situation
soon displaced conjecture on the other subject.
He waited in expectancy to discern some mental pointing; he knew that if any
intention of his, concluded over-night, did not vanish in the light of morning,
it stood on a basis approximating to one of pure reason, even if initiated by impulse
of feeling; that it was so far, therefore, to be trusted. He thus beheld in the
pale morning light the resolve to separate from her; not as a hot and indignant
instinct, but denuded of the passionateness which had made it scorch and burn; standing
in its bones; nothing but a skeleton, but none the less there. Clare no longer hesitated.
At breakfast, and while they were packing the few remaining articles, he showed
his weariness from the night's effort so unmistakeably that Tess was on the point
of revealing all that had happened; but the reflection that it would anger him,
grieve him, stultify him, to know that he had instinctively manifested a fondness
for her of which his common-sense did not approve; that his inclination had compromised
his dignity when reason slept, again deterred her. It was too much like laughing
at a man when sober for his erratic deeds during intoxication.