"Did you meet her far from here?" he asked him.
"I tell you she was walking in front of me, staggering, just here, in the boulevard.
She only just reached the seat and sank down on it."
"Ah, the shameful things that are done in the world nowadays, God have mercy
on us! An innocent creature like that, drunk already! She has been deceived, that's
a sure thing. See how her dress has been torn too…. Ah, the vice one sees nowadays!
And as likely as not she belongs to gentlefolk too, poor ones maybe…. There are
many like that nowadays. She looks refined, too, as though she were a lady," and
he bent over her once more.
Perhaps he had daughters growing up like that, "looking like ladies and refined"
with pretensions to gentility and smartness….
"The chief thing is," Raskolnikov persisted, "to keep her out of this scoundrel's
hands! Why should he outrage her! It's as clear as day what he is after; ah, the
brute, he is not moving off!"
Raskolnikov spoke aloud and pointed to him. The gentleman heard him, and seemed
about to fly into a rage again, but thought better of it, and confined himself to
a contemptuous look. He then walked slowly another ten paces away and again halted.
"Keep her out of his hands we can," said the constable thoughtfully, "if only
she'd tell us where to take her, but as it is…. Missy, hey, missy!" he bent over
her once more.
She opened her eyes fully all of a sudden, looked at him intently, as though
realising something, got up from the seat and walked away in the direction from
which she had come. "Oh shameful wretches, they won't let me alone!" she said, waving
her hand again. She walked quickly, though staggering as before. The dandy followed
her, but along another avenue, keeping his eye on her.
"Don't be anxious, I won't let him have her," the policeman said resolutely,
and he set off after them.
"Ah, the vice one sees nowadays!" he repeated aloud, sighing.
At that moment something seemed to sting Raskolnikov; in an instant a complete
revulsion of feeling came over him.
"Hey, here!" he shouted after the policeman.
The latter turned round.
"Let them be! What is it to do with you? Let her go! Let him amuse himself."
He pointed at the dandy, "What is it to do with you?"
The policeman was bewildered, and stared at him open-eyed. Raskolnikov laughed.
"Well!" ejaculated the policeman, with a gesture of contempt, and he walked after
the dandy and the girl, probably taking Raskolnikov for a madman or something even
"He has carried off my twenty copecks," Raskolnikov murmured angrily when he
was left alone. "Well, let him take as much from the other fellow to allow him to
have the girl and so let it end. And why did I want to interfere? Is it for me to
help? Have I any right to help? Let them devour each other alive– what is to me?
How did I dare to give him twenty copecks? Were they mine?"
In spite of those strange words he felt very wretched. He sat down on the deserted
seat. His thought strayed aimlessly…. He found it hard to fix his mind on anything
at that moment. He longed to forget himself altogether, to forget everything, and
then to wake up and begin life anew….
"Poor girl!" he said, looking at the empty corner where she had sat– "She will
come to herself and weep, and then her mother will find out…. She will give her
a beating, a horrible, shameful beating and then maybe, turn her out of doors….
And even if she does not, the Darya Frantsovnas will get wind of it, and the girl
will soon be slipping out on the sly here and there. Then there will be the hospital
directly (that's always the luck of those girls with respectable mothers, who go
wrong on the sly) and then… again the hospital… drink… the taverns… and more hospital,
in two or three years– a wreck, and her life over at eighteen or nineteen…. Have
not I seen cases like that? And how have they been brought to it? Why, they've all
come to it like that. Ugh! But what does it matter? That's as it should be, they
tell us. A certain percentage, they tell us, must every year go… that way… to the
devil, I suppose, so that the rest may remain chaste, and not be interfered with.
A percentage! What splendid words they have; they are so scientific, so consolatory….
Once you've said 'percentage,' there's nothing more to worry about. If we had any
other word… maybe we might feel more uneasy…. But what if Dounia were one of the
percentage! Of another one if not that one?
"But where am I going?" he thought suddenly. "Strange, I came out for something.
As soon as I had read the letter I came out…. I was going to Vassilyevsky Ostrov,
to Razumihin. That's what it was… now I remember. What for, though? And what put
the idea of going to Razumihin into my head just now? That's curious."
He wondered at himself. Razumihin was one of his old comrades at the university.
It was remarkable that Raskolnikov had hardly any friends at the university; he
kept aloof from every one, went to see no one, and did not welcome any one who came
to see him, and indeed every one soon gave him up. He took no part in the students'
gatherings, amusements or conversations. He worked with great intensity without
sparing himself, and he was respected for this, but no one liked him. He was very
poor, and there was a sort of haughty pride and reserve about him, as though he
were keeping something to himself. He seemed to some of his comrades to look down
upon them all as children, as though he were superior in development, knowledge
and convictions, as though their beliefs and interests were beneath him.
With Razumihin he had got on, or, at least, he was more unreserved and communicative
with him. Indeed it was impossible to be on any other terms with Razumihin. He was
an exceptionally good-humoured and candid youth, good-natured to the point of simplicity,
though both depth and dignity lay concealed under that simplicity. The better of
his comrades understood this, and all were fond of him. He was extremely intelligent,
though he was certainly rather a simpleton at times. He was of striking appearance–
tall, thin, blackhaired and always badly shaved. He was sometimes uproarious and
was reputed to be of great physical strength. One night, when out in a festive company,
he had with one blow laid a gigantic policeman on his back. There was no limit to
his drinking powers, but he could abstain from drink altogether; he sometimes went
too far in his pranks; but he could do without pranks altogether. Another thing
striking about Razumihin, no failure distressed him, and it seemed as though no
unfavourable circumstances could crush him. He could lodge anywhere, and bear the
extremes of cold and hunger. He was very poor, and kept himself entirely on what
he could earn by work of one sort or another. He knew of no end of resources by
which to earn money. He spent one whole winter without lighting his stove, and used
to declare that he liked it better, because one slept more soundly in the cold.
For the present he, too, had been obliged to give up the university, but it was
only for a time, and he was working with all his might to save enough to return
to his studies again. Raskolnikov had not been to see him for the last four months,
and Razumihin did not even know his address. About two months before, they had met
in the street, but Raskolnikov had turned away and even crossed to the other side
that he might not be observed. And though Razumihin noticed him, he passed him by,
as he did not want to annoy him. CHAPTERFIVE Chapter Five
"OF COURSE, I've been meaning lately to go to Razumihin's to ask for work, to
ask him to get me lessons or something…" Raskolnikov thought, "but what help can
he be to me now? Suppose he gets me lessons, suppose he shares his last farthing
with me, if he has any farthings, so that I could get some boots and make myself
tidy enough to give lessons… hm… Well and what then? What shall I do with the few
coppers I earn? That's not what I want now. It's really absurd for me to go to Razumihin…."
The question why he was now going to Razumihin agitated him even more than he
was himself aware; he kept uneasily seeking for some sinister significance in this
apparently ordinary action.
"Could I have expected to set it all straight and to find a way out by means
of Razumihin alone?" he asked himself in perplexity.
He pondered and rubbed his forehead, and, strange to say, after long musing,
suddenly, as if it were spontaneously and by chance, a fantastic thought came into
"Hm… to Razumihin's," he said all at once, calmly, as though he had reached a
final determination. "I shall go to Razumihin's of course, but… not now. I shall
go to him… on the next day after It, when It will be over and everything will begin
And suddenly he realised what he was thinking.
"After It," he shouted, jumping up from the seat, "but is It really going to
happen? Is it possible it really will happen?" He left the seat, and went off almost
at a run; he meant to turn back, homewards, but the thought of going home suddenly
filled him with intense loathing; in that hole, in that awful little cupboard of
his, all this had for a month past been growing up in him; and he walked on at random.
His nervous shudder had passed into a fever that made him feel shivering; in
spite of the heat he felt cold. With a kind of effort he began almost unconsciously,
from some inner craving, to stare at all the objects before him, as though looking
for something to distract his attention; but he did not succeed, and kept dropping
every moment into brooding. When with a start he lifted his head again and looked
around, he forgot at once what he had just been thinking about and even where he
was going. In this way he walked right across Vassilyevsky Ostrov, came out on to
the Lesser Neva, crossed the bridge and turned towards the islands. The greenness
and freshness were at first restful to his weary eyes after the dust of the town
and the huge houses that hemmed him in and weighed upon him. Here there were no
taverns, no stifling closeness, no stench. But soon these new pleasant sensations
passed into morbid irritability. Sometimes he stood still before a brightly painted
summer villa standing among green foliage, he gazed through the fence, he saw in
the distance smartly dressed women on the verandahs and balconies, and children
running in the gardens. The flowers especially caught his attention; he gazed at
them longer than at anything. He was met, too, by luxurious carriages and by men
and women on horseback; he watched them with curious eyes and forgot about them
before they had vanished from his sight. Once he stood still and counted his money;
he found he had thirty copecks. "Twenty to the policeman, three to Nastasya for
the letter, so I must have given forty-seven or fifty to the Marmeladovs yesterday,"
he thought, reckoning it up for some unknown reason, but he soon forgot with what
object he had taken the money out of his pocket. He recalled it on passing an eating-house
or tavern, and felt that he was hungry…. Going into the tavern he drank a glass
of vodka and ate a pie of some sort. He finished eating it as he walked away. It
was a long while since he had taken vodka and it had an effect upon him at once,
though he only drank a wine-glassful. His legs felt suddenly heavy and a great drowsiness
came upon him. He turned homewards, but reaching Petrovsky Ostrov he stopped completely
exhausted, turned off the road into the bushes, sank down upon the grass and instantly
In a morbid condition of the brain, dreams often have a singular actuality, vividness,
and extraordinary semblance of reality. At times monstrous images are created, but
the setting and the whole picture are so truthlike and filled with details so delicate,
so unexpectedly, but so artistically consistent, that the dreamer, were he an artist
like Pushkin or Turgenev even, could never have invented them in the waking state.
Such sick dreams always remain long in the memory and make a powerful impression
on the overwrought and deranged nervous system.
Raskolnikov had a fearful dream. He dreamt he was back in his childhood in the
little town of his birth. He was a child about seven years old, walking into the
country with his father on the evening of a holiday. It was a grey and heavy day,
the country was exactly as he remembered it; indeed he recalled it far more vividly
in his dream than he had done in memory. The little town stood on a level flat as
bare as the hand, not even a willow near it; only in the far distance, a copse lay,
a dark blur on the very edge of the horizon. A few paces beyond the last market
garden stood a tavern, a big tavern, which had always aroused in him a feeling of
aversion, even of fear, when he walked by it with his father. There was always a
crowd there, always shouting, laughter and abuse, hideous hoarse singing and often
fighting. Drunken and horrible-looking figures were hanging about the tavern. He
used to cling close to his father, trembling all over when he met them. Near the
tavern the road became a dusty track, the dust of which was always black. It was
a winding road, and about a hundred paces further on, it turned to the right to
the graveyard. In the middle of the graveyard stood a stone church with a green
cupola where he used to go to mass two or three times a year with his father and
mother, when a service was held in memory of his grandmother, who had long been
dead, and whom he had never seen. On these occasions they used to take on a white
dish tied up in a table napkin a special sort of rice pudding with raisins stuck
in it in the shape of a cross. He loved that church, the old-fashioned, unadorned
ikons and the old priest with the shaking head. Near his grandmother's grave, which
was marked by a stone, was the little grave of his younger brother who had died
at six months old. He did not remember him at all, but he had been told about his
little brother, and whenever he visited the graveyard he used religiously and reverently
to cross himself and to bow down and kiss the little grave. And now he dreamt that
he was walking with his father past the tavern on the way to the graveyard; he was
holding his father's hand and looking with dread at the tavern. A peculiar circumstance
attracted his attention: there seemed to be some kind of festivity going on, there
were crowds of gaily dressed townspeople, peasant women, their husbands, and riff-raff
of all sorts, all singing and all more or less drunk. Near the entrance of the tavern
stood a cart, but a strange cart. It was one of those big carts usually drawn by
heavy cart-horses and laden with casks of wine or other heavy goods. He always liked
looking at those great cart-horses, with their long manes, thick legs, and slow
even pace, drawing along a perfect mountain with no appearance of effort, as though
it were easier going with a load than without it. But now, strange to say, in the
shafts of such a cart he saw a thin little sorrel beast, one of those peasants'
nags which he had often seen straining their utmost under a heavy load of wood or
hay, especially when the wheels were stuck in the mud or in a rut. And the peasants
would be at them so cruelly, sometimes even about the nose and eyes and he felt
so sorry, so sorry for them that he almost cried, and his mother always used to
take him away from the window. All of a sudden there was a great uproar of shouting,
singing and the balalaika, and from the tavern a number of big and very drunken
peasants came out, wearing red and blue shirts and coats thrown over their shoulders.